Poems

My friend, who doesn't want her name up here as of right now, is amazing for writing poems, so I'm borrow a bunch and get them up here, because I either think they're really good, or understand completely, so here ya go.

*Exhausted*

Don't wanna be with them

I would rather be alone

Where I can sit and think

And be all on my own

Never show just how I feel

Or they won't let it go

I'd rather not explain it all

Nobody needs to know

So much static in my head

No idea what i want

Can't maintain this for too long

Don't know what I ahve got

Exhausted from the fight

To keep this up all day

Can't give up - have to push on

Can't flee, I have to stay

Never wanna be with them

I'd rather not explain it all

There's nothing they can do

I've be doomed to fall...

Becoming Everything I Hate

Im becoming what I hate
I lie to those who care
Saying things best left unsaid
Hiding things that I should share
Letting anger overcome me
Pushing everyone away
Never showing how I feel
Its the same thing everyday
Losing track of who I am
Denying what is true
Pointing out mistakes
In things Id attempt to do
Turning into a monster
At an alarming rate
Falling deeper in the hole
Becoming everything I hate

REFLECTION

Your Indecencys Repulsive
Too Caught Up With All You Need
Drawing Attention All Round You
So They Will Help Your Ego Feed
Drama Seekings Not Enough
To Compromise For All Youve Done
Keep Shedding Tears To Get Noticed
Get Sympathy - You Think Youve Won
A Heartless Bitch After One Thing
Now Youve Succeeded In Your Plan
Used Your Body As A Silencer
For The Schemes You Have At Hand
Your Acts Disgusting And Pathetic
Easy To Tell Whats Coming Next
Getting Mad Cuz I Was Right
Time To Put My Mind At Rest
Put Your Blame Where It Belongs
Youll Find Your Enemy Is Near
Cuz To See The One At Fault
Just Take A Look In Any Mirror.

*Amnesia*

It really scares me that I don't

Know who I am no more.

Can't tell where I belong -

My heart has shut the door

No clue of how I feel

Or what I really want

Never seem satisfied

With everything I've got

Can't control myself no more

I'm constantly depressed

Try to act like I'm together

But the role makes me so stressed

Everything I think is right

Always turns out to be wrong

Don't know how I got like this

When I use to be so strong

Emotional wreck is what I am

And an idiot as well

But that's about all that I know

I can't remember when I fell...

Who was there to pick me up?

Cuz I appear to be alone

Like I've got amnesia;

My identity's unknown

Pathetic

Is sex so important

That it becomes all that you need?

That's how everybody acts

Pure pleasure they only feed

"Screw emotions, let's have sex"

Cuz you know that's for the best...

That's that last thing I would want

Guess I'm different from the rest

I'd rather not do all that stuff

Cuz it means nothing to me...

I'd rather find that someone who

Wants to be with me, for me

I don't care about that shit

It's all a waste of time

Yeah, it's pleasure for a bit -

But the rest's all in your mind

I'm the kinda girl who doesn't

Back down from what they want

Don't need to do that stuff

Or be half naked and flaunt

Conservative to a degree

We all have our wild days

But I'd never be obsessed

With my body or their ways

I can say this all in truth

Cuz I've done a lot of these

Yet I still can say that it's

Not something that I would need

I'd rather not become like them

Despite what you may say

Bases are overrated

And I'll always feel this way

If you like someone enough

then you're with them cuz you care

not because you want action

but I dont see that around here...

Blind

So many things I want to say

But I doubt that you would care

So many feelings that I hide

That I doubt you'll ever share

Wonder if I cross your mind

Or if you ever think of me

Has the thought ever occured to you

Or am I just a girl you see?

Don't really know what's going on

Or if the feeling's even true

Confused with who I am

No more faith in what I do

Secretive and full of doubt

And there's so mcuh I can't see

How come my vision's clouded

Yet you all can see through me?

Hiding

Backed off into a corner

And I just cannot escape

All my exits are unknown

Self-hidden behind a cape

Hope that nobody will see me

Cuz I know they wouldn't care

Being me's not good enough

This world never will be fair

Dependant on no one else

Cuz I cannot trust them all

I'm the only one I've got

Left enclosed behind my wall

What do I really want?

Don't think I'll ever know

Wish I could leave this place

Don't say goodbye, just turn and go

Deep in thought about something

That I cannot understand

Don't know what it means

No longer sure of where I stand

Mis-understood in everyway

They would never see me cry

People don't understand I hide

They see me smile and walk by

I don't feel pity for myself

Cuz I've now became this way

A girl to be forgotten

Who you walk by everyday

Into Depression

Slipping through the silence
not sure of where to go
Everything is different
and you hate the things you know
Turning back the hours
and the thoughts inside your mind
You wish that you were perfect
but its just a waste of time
Waiting for an answer
that nobody can bring
All your efforts are forgotten
but you cant do anything
Why are you convicted
a leader of this game?
Whos gonna be your savior
that will help you end your pain?
A sharp and rigid friend,
or a ledge from which to leap?
A noose to be enclosed
or a secret you will keep?
Slip into the darkness,
and never ask for more
The only way youre noticed
is cold, and on the floor.

Under-Estimation

I under-estimate your mind
guess you can see through me
Not like Im all that great
at trying to not be seen
I know that you can tell
why I say the things I do
Dont need to make it obvious
but you do not have a clue
Can you understand I cant
seem to make it go away?
Thats why I never speak the words
that I really want to say...
I realize there is no point
but its a phase - it will pass by
Though I still dont understand..
theres no need to question why
Please dont make this awkward for me
this is why its kept inside
Im still the same girl that I was,
just Ive got a lot to hide
I might under-estimate your mind
but you under-estimate me too
Cuz although you like to lie,
theres something youre hiding too.

×··×My Disease×··×

waiting for some signal
that its going to be okay
staring out the window
watching time just pass away
no idea what Im doing
or exactly where I am
not too sure if Im just dreaming
or if Id even give a damn
getting mixed up in this world
dunno where I would belong
doing things I shouldnt be
even though they feel so wrong
searching for a clue
that Im not going insane
need to find a new way out
taking pleasure in my pain
think I need some time alone
to fix this thing each part by part
maybe these are symptoms of
my disease - a broken heart

Watching the Spider's Web

Why can't things be stable...
Instead we turn away
We look to find an answer
there's no price we won't pay
Maybe what we'er after
Is right before our eyes
Why can't life be perfect
We shower it with lies
Time and time again we
let the past unfold
Instead of doing our best
We do just as we're told
Stories keep on forming
To put their minds at ease
Their vision has been altered
Not sure of what he sees
Predictions that are useless
Nobody questions why
It seems our pains unnoticed
Until they see us cry
What if tomorrow's destined
To be worse than today?
Why can't we fight the future
There's always one more way
We settle for one answer
Cuz we rufuse to see
We control our future
There's no set destiny
Maybe there's a secret
Deep inside us all
That noone can discover
Unless they choose to fall
Recovering from a heartache
You won't be left alone
Where's the thirll inside a journey
If the end's already known?
Answers bring more questions
Just let the silence speak
Patience is a virtue but
The will of man is weak

*~*You’ll See*~*
Sometimes I get the notion
That it’s never going to end
Some days I wonder if I’ll
Lose another friend
My confidence was shattered
But is held up now by glue
The impact from their stories
Made me question what to do
I’d ask if you would let me..
But it never leaves my mind
These times are getting harder
But I manage through just fine
So tempted to let go
Of the walls that I have built
But to chance the pain or hurt
..I would rather live with guilt
Stand beneath a road
The wind blows to nudge you on
One moment I see hope
..then the next minute it’s gone
Push away the feeling
Maybe then you’ll see
The reasons why I gave up
and what you didn’t see in me

If you'd like some of your stuff up here, give some stuff to read eh?